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(23/3/2010) My current love…

2010-05-23T02:07:00.001+08:00

My bro’s wedding reception is juz around da corner so I hav been thinking bout my make-up as well esp da eye part….super obsessed wif dis art of beauty hehehe…erm im not sure whether I shud hav smokey eyes or use brigher colours though..i hav been thinking a combination of purple+pink though….haiz but evtg needs $$$$$....tight budget nowadays though hehehe….need to buy lots n lots of things….esp make-up thingy and skincare products…cant afford buying good make-up brands though like mac, bobby brown, shu eumura, chanel etc…haiz…so these few days kinda bz doing research on affordable make-up brands yet bringing satisfying results as promised n not juz gimics….had eyes on a few products dy n hopefully can be found in bintulu….

P/S: Any suggestion for good make-up products is warmly welcomed...

Tata...gotta off to bed ..*wink*

(20/5/2010) Hair..hair..hair…..

2010-05-23T02:06:00.000+08:00

These few days, I hav been thinking a hell lot bout wad to do wif my hair…shud I make it straight o keep it permed? Dye o not dye?? Headache…If dye, wad colour shud I hav then?? If too bright, scare will look kinda rebellious lol….still need to keep my girl-nex-door image but sill keeping da fashion sense…haha….jz kidding ;)

Till then...take care:)

(19/5/2010)22nd bday :)

2010-05-23T02:03:00.002+08:00

Goin to start off wif my 22nd bday…it would be my most memorable bday ever as my air ticket bac to btu was at 30th so I was able to celebrate it will both frens n family….i celebrated a day earlier wif frens at a japanese restaurant sumwhere at lowyat there….a great one though n I think better than sushi king hehe...

Bac home, mum din cook a great meal though…juz sou mien wif chicken soup(Foochow tradition to eat sou mien wif chicken soup n of course, da bday gurl gets da paha ayam…huhuhu) …n I think it’s super enuf dy..hehe…long time din hv mum’s cooking…missed it so much….

p/s 4got to take photos of my bday presents…all in kl..din bring them bac home…basically, most of them r kawaii soft toys…:)

urgh....d line is juz way too slow...tried to upload a few photos but cant get thru evtime...guess hv to upload other time then...;(

Will update more…(19/5/2010)

2010-05-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

Cant believe I had abandoned my blog for such a long time… a couple reasons dat I can come up with to take da blame will be of course, heavy ‘school’ loads (prefer using da word school though to run away from da fact of growing old..hehe) and finally, lack of da habit of documenting my daily activities..hehe..now, im bac home with two whole months of holidays…so, its time for me to practise my long-abandoned English grammar and vocabulary..dun reali get da chance though to write’bunga-bunga’ English, if u r dealing with a hell lot of medicines n medical terms LOL….gonna write more during this hols before I disappear again once school reopens hehe..however due to insufficient performance of online connection at home (dial-up, wad more u can expect?!!!lol), I maybe posting up multiple posts per day but written at different days with dates stated)

If I Were A Boy - Beyonce Knowles

2009-06-22T12:53:00.000+08:00

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guysAnd chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it'
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come homeI
f I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it huts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

relieved eventuali....

2009-06-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday, my mum finally picked up my blood test n it turned out not to be satisfying..there were few parts highlighted, meaning not within da normal range…kinda worried neh…n dis is only when I will start blaming myself for not doing any exercise…..haih….on da report, it said dat I got wad relative lymphocytosis, as in my level of lymphocytes is slightly higher than normal n my monocytic level is nil…my level of basophils is kinda beyond normal as well…slightly high a bit..in short, the white blood cell levels are out of order..haih…kinda worried neh n I will start imagining da worst…n all those serious diseases come popping into my head…I even imagine all those medications and syringes dat I hate da most..sobsob….reali v afraid n worried neh…plus at da same time, I hav my period n my whole body feel super unwell neh…with my shoulders, arms n legs ache….coupled up with my excruciating menstrual cramp n throbbing headache, haih, make me wanna go crazy neh…..
anyway, juz consulted dr n he told me dat evtg was normal cos my total WBC is still within da normal level…my RBC level is oso normal n since both RBC n WBC are morphologically normal, so there is ntg to be worried bout…kinda relieved at last…guess I hav to start exercise dy…reali learnt my lesson ady…

home sweet home...

2009-05-15T10:21:00.002+08:00

Cant believe i hav long deserted my blog for like nearly 5months neh...hehe lazy to update ar...plus ntg special n interesting in my evday life other than eat, sleep, study, perhaps a little shopping or watching movies during da weekends....dats all....ntg special....so do not update often....hmm....bac in bintulu ady...doin ntg at home other than being a couch potato....waiting for @joy to cum bac...haiz....stil a long way to go neh....it seems dat both my laopos r having finals neh....so who's in btu at da moment?? guess i hav to spend my holidays at home...hehe...reading novels is kinda bored n tiring at times esp if u read like da whole day....watching too much telly will only make u feel more tired n lazy....plus im totalli outdated ady...no idea wad's da latest showbiz gossips...if u ask me to watch dramas, its like i hav to start in da middle of nowhere n struggle to put together the broken fragments to get a flowing storyline...lol plus some dramas r still on n it's aired like even be4 i left...now im bac n it's stil airing...wad type of dramas will be dat long other than my mum's all time favourite - hokkien dramas...OMG....its like reaching 200++ episodes n my mum is still following every episode of it..if u dare to touch da remote during her 'tv' time, u better watch out..lol she will nag u to switch to her channel although it's commercial break...duh....dun understand...reali siao ar...so long n lo-so as well....haiz....k la....too much on my complains...gtg...:)

in a mess

2009-01-24T15:48:00.002+08:00

PAP was over but i can feel my whole life was in a mess....lots of topics to catch up, reports piling up n i can feel myself out of breath every now n then....cny is juz two days away but exams are around the corner as well....n i can feel da tension building up in me dat im afraid that i cant hold it any longer....im on da verge of breaking down...there's sumthing other than studies dat bug me dat i can feel myself going crazy anytime right now...n im aware of dat....so now da only thing i can do is to get control of my messy life n most importantly my emotions....constantly reminding myself to get grip of myself, nvr slipping away n be brave....wil hav to get back on my feet asap n will take dis cny break as a transition point...there wil be no turning back...

mv shooting....

2009-01-04T11:26:00.003+08:00

so here i am, tired AGAIN....yesterday was like going around setapak till 2pm....woke up at 6am...im tired as a dog ....n today, i went for a cny mv shooting....woke up early again..my whole body aches..feel like shattering...mv shooting im toking bout here is not wad u think - breath-taking views, high-tech production cameras, huge crews....nah, it's juz a shoot for our hostel cny activity wif a small mini production crew- a group fo less than 10? camera? erm typical cameras, not da one u hav to put on ur shoulder like u hav seen in any 'the making of..'.....though tired, but i think it's great...n fun....hehe....we shoot at titiwangsa lake there...then a playground sumwhere around....wif ppl jogging around, taichi-ing, n walking around...it's kinda weird n embarassing to be making a scene there..wif many pairs of eyes looking...get me real self-conscious n nervous hehe..but later, get used to it n dun giv a damn bout it..haha...we play around and reali enjoy every bit of it....gosh, im not going to elaborate more on it..im juz too tired to tap my fingers on da keyboard..will be having another shoot at1pm....but kinda anticipating the music video after they finish editing it...i think it will be great...hehe k..til then..tata

reflection...

2008-12-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

sumhow,i reali feel dat the lyric of this song is written for me...hehe...it partly reflects on wad im thinking at times....

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麼人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞 Oh--
我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我
擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
路上相爱的人那麼多
我会幸福吗在什麼时候 Oh—

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

p/s: i hope im not givin da wrong info dat im so desperate, okay..hehe..im emo-ing again....cant sleep ba....

sleepless nights....

2008-12-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

as i expected, i couldnt sleep a wink last nite.....sleep at around 2.3o am doin pap thingy then woke up at 6.30 am for lectures....who knos we dun even hav any class for dis whole week...2nite, i dun think i can sleep oso..my brain is overtly active probably becos i hav a lot of things in mind..hav to finish off many things.but anyway though tired, my team managed to finish one task in a night..im vvv happy..but still, there r 3 more tasks to do neh....2molo morning hav to practise dancing at 9am..nt sure i can wake up a not....i cant sleep neh..can anyone club me at my head to get me to sleep???....my brain is super exhausted but sumhow it couldnt stop working...i miss home esp during nights like this....getting bac here makes me real tired....i hate my life here..not lonely becos of no frens but i juz feel that sum part of me is missing...

traumatised....

2008-12-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

went to times square today..n im super tired...accompany my frens to buy their dresses n shoes for coursenite....aduh..my body aches here n there especially my legs...scared my legs will becum 'lobak' legs....my leg muscles will get bigger n bigger if walk like dis evryday...after i get out from da monorail at imbi station, an 'angmo' lady kept on shouting for her handbag...kena ragut...haiz...realli curse dat guy....y wan to steal from other ppl...of course there r sum heros trying to help but i think dat culprit managed to escape...she fell when she was trying to chase for her handbag..i hope she was not hurt neh...guess all her passport n money was in her handbag....haish...realli terrible a....god, please preserve me frm all those bad ppl...i promise i will be a good girl owez though im one oledy....muahaha...n touchwood...i dun wan anything bad to happen to me.......my parents will be damn worried....haiz..v scared to go out neh...n hopefully tonite no nightmare..me v 'kiakia'....

xiangxiang...

2008-12-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

xiangxiang...hehe my rummate's name...her name is xiang yi..but i prefer call her xiangxiang..she's so pissed off at first..but now she gets used to it neh..haha..she owez "rang" me one..hehe(in english, she gives in in wadever i say o do n end up spoiling me...hehe)dun think she will read dis post la ho..hehe if not she will kill me neh..lol xiangxiang is sleeping now hehe...she went bac in da morning n she cleaned our rum..so when i arrived,hehe da rum is clean clean..(told ya she spoils me..lol) so, da only thing i do is juz to unpack my things n put them in place..my rummate v good ho..hehe...unfortunately, 2nd yr we r not goin to live together neh..she lives wif her gang ba..sobsob how can she abandon me like dat...lol....haiz i start complaining ady...i think being my rummate is super kolian...here's my list y i say so:

i owez grumble n nagnag when im unhappy o stressed..poor xiangxiang has to listen to my naggy(those who knows me will let me nag cos after i complain a hell lot..i will be okay hehe)
my rummate has to tahan me being "manjamanja" hehe..sumtimes i get sotsot..duno which screw gone loose n i will start ehem.."sa jiao" duno wad's it in english...lol
i can be super quiet n oso super chatty....but i will only be v noisy when im tired le,say like after studying..so im da other way round..when im in da normal mode,im quiet hehe..but of course depends on who's da other person im wif...im v distant n aloof among strangers..actuali im scared to be honest hehe...but sum ppl may mistaken me to be v icy,cool o proud...argh dun care la..i cant control wad ppl think bout me neh...i only kno dat once da ice is broken, i can be vv close..juz like how i stick to my laopos hehe...mwaksmwaks

in conclusion, xiangxiang spoils me n i dun mind to be spoilt hehe though she is one yr younger than me...but i oso do stg in return wad hehe...sumtimes i will sing songs to her using little kids' voice.....i will oso force her to sing barney song wif me..me v bad ho lol..but dis other side of me can only be seen by my rummate hehe...no one else can..lol.....lup u o,xiangxiang....mwaks....hehe

jail...

2008-12-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

now bac in my jail ady..juz taken my bath after unpacking all my things kept in da store...now waiting for my hair to dry..haish...tired...kinda miss home now..hehe...cant believe im only homesick after completing one sem ady..haish ntg much too update la.....my rummate slept dy neh...hehe she muz be super tired after cleaning our room....well toking bout my rummate,i will post another separate post bout her...juz to compensate sum1 who says i waste all her effort neh...hehe... checked my results ady...okay la..no fail,im oledy super happy ady...dun hope for more neh..haiz 13 more days for coursenite..n our performance is still like ehem..hanging..lol...plus everyone is bz wif pap thingy..so it's like v bz for this few weeks...dats y i dread to come bac here...sobsob...

p/s: sorry to those whos so unlucky to read dis post...im super tired n kinda depressed wif so many things awaiting me to do..so i hav to kinda complain a bit to release stress ba..bydway, y my hair hasnt dry a??

first post

2008-12-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

orite...here i am...moved my blog all over from friendster to here.....thanks to my laopo, @joy for 'pestering' me time to time to move my blog...lol n of course thanks to her i finally hav a blog of my own..but evtg here was selected and managed by my laopo..maklum ba, im from dinosaur age...lol well ntg much to update other than eat,sleep n enjoying life to da fullest....goin to kl 'again' on dis friday for granny's bday.....haish..ntg to wear neh...plus today not feeling v well...sorethroat n a little feverish..haish..anyway happy holidays to all n merry christmas!!!

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